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  • ISBN: 9781534437180
  • ISBN: 1534437185
  • ISBN: 9781534437197
  • ISBN: 1534437193
  • Physical Description: 386 pages ; 22 cm
  • Edition: First edition.
  • Publisher: New York : Margaret K. McElderry Books, [2019]

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Summary, etc.:
After coming out as transgender, Chris is still processing a frightening assault he survived the year before, while Maia, grieving the loss of her older sister, is trying to find her place in the world, which makes falling in love the furthest thing on their minds--until it is not.
A near-fatal car accident brings Chris and Maia together, and their next encounters don't fare much better. They're neighbors, at least for the summer, and despite their best efforts, they just can't seem to stay away from each other. Chris has come out as transgender, but he's still processing a frightening assault he survived the year before. Maia is grieving the loss of her older sister and trying to find her place in the world without her. Falling in love was the last thing on either of their minds. -- adapted from jacket

  • Booklist Reviews : Booklist Reviews 2019 May #1
    Separately, Chris and Maia are two teens consumed by deep personal problems. When Chris spends the summer at his aunt's in small-town North Carolina to escape his parents' arguments about his being transgender, the two teens meet and gradually become more than friends. Nevertheless, it takes time for Chris to reveal he's trans, and he doesn't want to talk about the brutal gendered assault he suffered a year ago. Maia's reluctance to talk about her sister's death continues to shield another secret she's hoping never to reveal, especially to Chris. Smith's whole-hearted support of LBGTQ teens and equality is genuine, as is her acknowledgment that grief must occur on one's own terms. Both narrators are honest in their own narratives even when they hide truths from each other, and the inclusion of close friends who are placed at arms' length bring an added dimension of authenticity to the story. Teens who need to find their place in a world they hope will accept and understand them will want to read this compelling novel. Grades 9-12. Copyright 2019 Booklist Reviews.

Author Notes

Amber Smith is the New York Times bestselling author of the young adult novels The Way I Used to Be and The Last to Let Go. An advocate for increased awareness of gendered violence, as well as LGBTQ equality, she writes in the hope that her books can help to foster change and spark dialogue surrounding these issues. She grew up in Buffalo, New York, and now lives in Charlotte, North Carolina, with her partner and their ever-growing family of rescued dogs and cats. You can find her online at

Subject: Transgender people > Juvenile fiction.
Grief > Juvenile fiction.
Man-woman relationships > Juvenile fiction.
Teenagers > Juvenile fiction.
Transgender people > Fiction.
Love > Fiction.
YOUNG ADULT FICTION / Social Themes / New Experience.
YOUNG ADULT FICTION / Family / General (see also headings under Social Themes).
Genre: Young adult fiction.
Romance fiction.

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