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Blood orange night : my journey to the edge of madness / Melissa Bond.

Bond, Melissa, (author.).

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  • 1 of 2 copies available at LARL/NWRL Consortium.
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Location Call Number / Copy Notes Barcode Shelving Location Status Due Date
Breckenridge Public Library 616.8498 BON (Text) 33500013620133 New Available -
Detroit Lakes Public Library 616.8498 BON (Text) 33500013620125 New Checked out 07/18/2022

Record details

  • ISBN: 9781982188276
  • ISBN: 1982188278
  • Physical Description: xii, 269 pages : 24 cm.
  • Edition: First Gallery Books hardcover edition.
  • Publisher: New York : Gallery Books, 2022.

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Summary, etc.:
"From journalist and poet Melissa Bond, a gripping account of the author's addiction to benzodiazepines (a family of drugs that includes Xanax, Valium, Klonopin, Ativan) and the hidden dangers they pose. As Melissa mothers her infant daughter and a special-needs one-year-old son, she suffers from unbearable insomnia, sleeping an hour or less each night. She loses her job as a journalist (a casualty of the 2008 recession), and her relationship with her husband grows distant. Her doctor casually prescribes benzodiazepines with little fanfare, increasing her dosage on a regular basis. Following her doctor's orders, Melissa takes the pills night after night; her body begins to shut down and she collapses while holding her infant daughter. Only then does Melissa learn that her doctor-like many doctors-has over-prescribed the medication, and quitting cold-turkey could lead to psychosis or fatal seizure. Benzodiazepine addiction is not well studied, and few experts know how to help Melissa begin the months-long process of tapering off the pills without suffering debilitating, potentially deadly consequences. Lyrical and immersive, Blood Orange Night shines a light on the dark underside of benzodiazepines. According to the FDA, approximately 92 million benzodiazepine prescriptions were filled in the US in 2019. In 2018, half of all benzodiazepine prescriptions filled were for two months or longer, despite recommended use of no more than 14 days and evidence that physical dependence can occur within a week. Much like the opioid crisis that has rocked the nation, prescription benzodiazepine addiction is an epidemic reaching a crisis point"-- Provided by publisher.

  • Booklist Reviews : Booklist Reviews 2022 May #1
    Because benzodiazepines like Ativan and Valium are addictive, it's a bad idea to take them for long periods of time. In 2010, Bond, a journalist and mom with two very young kids, including one with Down syndrome, starts taking Ativan for insomnia. She gets hooked. She blogs about it and gets interviewed by ABC World News Tonight for a piece that never airs. Over time, she grows skinnier and weaker, and she and her husband drift apart. She switches doctors and takes Valium because it stays in the body longer and causes a less severe "freak-out" when she tries to withdraw. At the close of her memoir, with her kids ages 11 and 12, Bond admits that she still takes 5 milligrams of Valium nightly. At least she's alive, unlike Soundgarden lead singer Chris Cornell, whose death was ruled a suicide but whose wife sued the doctor who gave him so very many Ativan prescriptions. Bond's story, with lines like "the blood orange night turns red and screams through my eyes," is an eloquent cautionary tale. Copyright 2022 Booklist Reviews.

Author Notes

Melissa Bond is narrative journalist and poet. In the years of her dependence on benzodiazepines, Melissa blogged and became a regular contributor for Mad in America. ABC World News Tonight interviewed her for a piece in January 2014. Melissa is a respected writer on the perils of over-prescribing benzodiazepines and has been featured on the podcasts Risk!IGNTD, and The Addiction Podcast. Learn more at

Subject: Bond, Melissa > Health.
Insomniacs > Biography.
Benzodiazepine abuse.
Insomnia > Psychological aspects.
Benzodiazepine abuse.
Insomnia > Psychological aspects.
Genre: Biographies.

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